Posted: Oct 4, 2006 6:35 pm
RJ: Yeah, you're right, I just take it for granted that people around here are gonna be hanging out with weirdos anyway.
The point is though, for years I hung out with a group of people, we were are all outcast from the outcasts. And we were angry, hateful people and didn't care much for each other either, but we had nobody else. Because of that, there'd be people fucking each others girlfriends, stealing from each other, getting in fist fights, quitting bands. We were all a family and I still love those guys, we all share the same mark on our chest because they are such an important part of my life... BUT, there comes a time I think when even though you care about someone(s) that you gotta start thinking about your own best interests and find more positive relationships.
One of my best friends, I love the guy, he literally is family, but, we were bad for each other. We bring out the worst in each other. We drug each other deeper into seriously antisocial behavior. Like, breaking into coke dealers houses with a loaded shotgun while he was home type of horrible. Seriously. Eventually I knew we'd both end up dead or in prison soon, so I broke off from him. Shortly after that, he did get in alot of trouble, like prison trouble. However, he's dealing with that, and apart from that, he seems to be doing very good now from what I hear from my family and I'm happy for him. I wish I could hang with the guy, but there is just too much going on there. It'd take me a book to explain it, but if you've got any smarts in you whatsoever it shouldn't be hard to figure out who is a positive and who is a negative influence in yer life.